~~ glad i'm urs.~~

last nite, i was talking to HIM after mcm lama sgt dh tade any news dari HIM...



*tue yg jd tetiba emo tak pasal-pasal tue..sampai tah pape..sian HIM*



since dia lama kat singapore sbb kapal dia loading and discharge kat singapore je..so dia mtk tlg crew dia belikan top up sim card singapore dia so dia can call me...lgpun rate lg murah arr kalo HE call me...



herm..as usual...cik buah hati pengarang jantung sy tue cerita how busy he was ulang alik dr vietnam ke singapore so he got lotssssssssssss of work and tak sempat nak send even 1 sms tue me...*tetiba rasa mcm bersalah plak teremo lbey2..sian dia*..then he start to citer pasal what he have been thro sepanjang he tak dapat talk to me...cian dia..selama nie dia tgu masa jerk nak luahkan perasaan dia kat sy nie....as GF yg sgt2 memahami HIM..i can feel HIS feeling yg sedang melawan kesusahan atas KAPAL BUNGA SIANTAN yg agak hampeh tue..poor HIM...i let him luahkan perasaan sampai rs mcm tak sampai hati plak nak cerita itu ini and ngadu mcm2 benda kat HIM even me also a bit stress..bukan a bit okayyyy....BANYAK.....but i noe he need me more by that time..so i will ngadu2 and manja2 ngan HIM later lah....i noe its hard for HIM to go thro all dis things alone..but wut can i do...i just can comfort him from far and told him trillion time that i'm owez by his side....just byk2 kan sbr k syg...but i'm a bit frustrated when he said yg dia dh kurus sbb tak de bnd makan k atas kapal tue....dah arr me tak sker tgk dia kurus2 k...tak sker sgt2...rasa mcm nak tarek dia balek skrg jgak biler he said dia tak cukup mkn atas kapal tue....mesti arr dia tak leh makan VITAMIN C yg me bekalkan utk him atas kapal tue...VITA C tu utk boost his immune sistem as i aware yg udara atas kapal tue bukan arr elok sgt and dgn keadaan cuaca negara2 yg dia pegi tue tak menentu so i'm afraid yg dia senang kena flu and saket2 nnt...me was GF yg baik k..ape guna ilmu NUTRITION nie if i tak praktikkan for the one yg i sayang....so..disebabkan stok mknn atas kapal tue sgt lah hampeh and since dia tak bley mknn byk sgt so mesti dia tak bley mkn dat vitamin c sbb vitamin c tue akan sbbkan selera mkn HIM increase....huh...i started to risau2 k....lbey2 lg biler dgr mcm2 benda jd kat dia...but wut i can do as pray and pray for him..for his safety and health...me tak pernah brhenti berdoa for him and for us....thats our 1st part of conversation k....



then later tiba2 i jadi sebak.....herm..maybe sbb i tgh stress and really missing him kot..pastu plak him bley erk citer all memories yg we all lalui sesame ms before him sign on his 1st ship dulu k....he start cerita how he hantar me naik bas kat stesen komuter serdang for me balik ke my kolej kat upm and then he going back to his cousin house...him akan tgu sampai my bas hilang dr mata dia then br him balik...syahdu sgt bila ingat2 balik....then he keep reminds me pasal we went to MAHA 2006 together..gi ukur jalan serata KL nie..all the memories jdkan me lg sebak k....i dun aspect dat him will remember all that ok...tak sangka yg dia bley ceritakan balik wut happen during dats time....me sungguh2 sebak k..rasa sgt2 nyesal plak bila emo lbey2 hari tue...huhuhuhu....ye arr where u can get guy who kept all your memories by heart k...really beruntung diri me ini....then i terus jer kuar air mata k...me ingt dia tak sedar..pastu him tanye me ngantuk ke?..masa tu air mata me tak leh thn dh..kuar and terus kuar k.....he sedar yg me tgh nangis and he ask me not to cry....yer arr my BF nie tak pandai sgt pujuk2 me nie kalo jauh2..kalo dekat2 dia pandai arr...hehehehee...so sweet of him....



after that i realise yg i sgt2 beruntung sbb he betul2 sygkan me..even byk benda jd between us but we manage to settle it and stay in love......kdg2 me jd tak adil dgn him sbb him trust me with all his heart..but me sker je tiba2 pikir benda yg pelik2..but its normal lah kan..me perempuan k...and sometimes feeling tak secure tue still ader inside mekn.......DEAR....ME MINTA MAAF K...i should not think benda bukan2 as ur love towards me is very sincere....i can feel it..just pray that what we have today kekal selama2 nya.....THANK FOR ALL THE LOVE U GAVE ME....thanks ALLAH for gift yg sgt2 berharga ini....

~~ REALLY-REALLY GLAD THAT I'M URS~~