Just An Advice to Myself ~~

Being sober lately sometimes good for me..I think..

Masa nielah baru rasa dapat muhasabah diri sendiri...ada masa untuk diri sendiri..mengenal kekurangan diri...

I know ive been not in good emotion last few days....being in "hari wanita sedunia" kadang-kadang sbbkan saya rasa sgt susah untuk kawal emosi nie....i'm a type of perempuan yg tidak marah-marah during the day of the month..tp its even worse....sy akan rs inferior pd diri sendiri..rs nak perhatian lebih and akan mula thinking thing yg unreasonable and tak relevan lansung...rs diri tak disayangi and akan senang sgt mengalir air mata....*even still feel it now*..haaiihh..

entahlah..susahkan jd perempuan?..selalu rs inferior and insecure..not only in relationship je tapi in everything...hermm...

mungkin sebab tue Allah ciptakan kita as perempuan nie sgt2 istimewa...walaupun kdg2 dgn kelakuan yg sgt pelik..

Being alone with myself help me relief sometimes..muhasabah apakah kekurangan diri..cr mane kesilapan diri yang kadang-kadang sendiri tak nampak tapi sebaliknye menunding jari menyalahkan org lain..entahlah...

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I got a story here...

H know a guy..lets called him as 'J'....H and J agak close due to something yg sbbkan both of them connected to each other...but not involving feeling-feeling lah...and J adalah lagi muda dari H..


J agak senang untuk berkongsi masalah dgn H due to her seniority and so called 'sister' to him...termasuklah cerita pasal his GF(lets called her 'K') and even knalkan H dgn K until H and K jd agak close even tak pernah jumpa pun...

Pape masalah between both of them..kalo tak K akan rujuk pada H..J sendiri yg akan cerita..

H tahu K mcmmane dr J and kdg2 dgr cerita pasal J dar K..tak ubah mcm org tgh..but for H..let only be the ears for both of them...nak campur lebih2 H mmg tak berani..apatah nak masuk campur hubungan org lain.... but H trust J more than K lah..

Entah kenapa tiba-tiba..J ngadu dia tak happy dgn K and he said K berubah jd someone yg he even dunno and no longer K yg dia knal...he's feeling towards K berubah from love to pity..H just cant say anything..its their relationshipkan..so let them settle sendri..lepas tue lama H tak dgr cerita pasal J ngan K nie...

Until one day....a girl (named her as L) sms H and introduced herself as J another gf's...hermmm....being so naive of H...andH just layankan je L nie..then..J also ngakulah yang L was his gf but he still with K..*dushh..dushh..* and tak bleh tglkan K due to something P&L..hermm...

The best part here was..L know about K but vice versa...and J as best as he can to keep safe L from K due to some reason and H the one who very unlucky to know dis...but H can see J is more happy when he with L..


H tried her best not to involve in this so called complicated relationship..get to know both of J gf was trouble to H at last.....

Tah mcmmane...atas kesilapan kecil L...K dapat tahu pasal L..and K start to blame H..kenapa H tak bgtau K pasal wujudnya L sedangkan H tahu...*sigh*

H dunno how to explain...start from this..K called H "hipokrit" and penyebab pada masalah dia dgn J...and until today K keep on accusing H..and do as best as she can to ruin H life...

Is that fair enough for H?..for someone yg tade kene mengena lansung dlm hal nie...

Where is J?..he keep pretending to K and until today he's still with both of the girl..

Yang jadi mangsa kat sini is H...so pity her..and she still cant handle dis even she keep distance from them...especially K yang sgt2 mcm org giler acussed H without looking back sape yg sebenar nya salah kat sini...

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herm....

pada saya..we need to munasabah diri...tanye diri sendiri kat apa salah kita sebelum kita cuba untuk salahkan org lain...

kadang-kadang masalah itu sebenarnya datang dari diri sendiri sebelum org lain....

Tapi kita tak nmpak mane silapnye diri kitakan....entahlah....

Saya sgt hargai masa-masa dgn diri sendiri sbb masa tu lah i can keep thinking back secara munasabah dan relevan nye segala apa yg org lain ckp pd kita and nasihatkan kita....

kdg2 kita silap dlm menilai pandangan dan pendapat org bila kita dalam keadaan beremosi yg tak menentu...

Mungkin saket utk terima pada awalnya tapi dengan muhasabah diri lah..kita akan jd lebih tenang utk menerima segala pandangan buruk baik org terhadap kita...

herm...cukuplah...

Sekadar nasihat untuk diri sendiri.....=)

P/s: sekadar melepaskan apa yg terbuku dihati..yang dah lama sgt terpendam